| Sorry loves, my computer has been down. I couldnt do my tuesday thought. So I decide to do a wednesday thought for you .
Todays lesson of life is unattachment, because it is something I am struggling with right now. Becoming unattached to a schedule...
"Perhaps the hardest lesson to learn is not to be attached to the results of your actions." joan borysenko
Unattachement is the release of need or expectiation associated with a specific outcome. For most people, this is one of the most difficult lessons to learn. We become attached to the way we envision something working out, and struggle to make circumstances bend to our desires. Life, however, ofted has its own agenda, and we are destined to suffer unless we give up our attachment to things working out exactly how e would like. We learn unattachment when we are able to release our belief that "there"is any better than "here". I went through a time in my life where I was always "attached" to something or someone. I am a Christian, but I feel to be the best Christian you need to know about others in the world. Like in Buddhism, the Buddhist teach that one of the major causes of unhappiness is desire...Like desire for a person, material things, money or status. These desires are what create attachments. Cody and I spend alot of time talking about this kind of stuff. we discuss how being spontaneous is such a good thing...it is definatly something I want to pursue bc I usually live by a planner...Material things just dont do it for me. I could care less about having the coolest car, or wearing the coolest clothes...i am low maintence (except for when it comes to lingerie...underware is important!!) but I look at mine and matthews relationship and about 65% of it was spent talking about finances...money...stuff that I dont need. I dont know...I guess Im weird....Being rich doesnt excite me. Living in a big house with expensive cars doesnt make my heart race. I want someone who is so in love with me...that everytime I see them...hug them....even talk to them I melt. I definatly believe in the fairytale romance. (i have seen it on the notebook PLENTY of times) I would much rather have happiness in life than money. I would much rather have a parter that is home to coach a little league team...than in the courtroom defending a case. I was listening to Ashlee simpsons song BETTER OFF the other day...here are the words. In black is how it applies to me.
The sky is falling
And it's early in the morning ----sittin on the couch and it starts to rain
But it's ok somehow
I spilt my coffee, it went
All over your clothes ------------okay maybe not coffee...but i
I gotta wear mine now always spill stuff on my cshirt so i have to
And im always, always,always late put mine on. =(
And my hair's a mess,
Even when it's straight --If you know me you know my hair
is always a mess.
But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright --just thinking of u makes me smile
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood -i thought the past was perfect
With you I'd say, i'm better off in every way but now i know it was no
where close.
My friends keep callin'
They say, they say im stallin'
And they wanna meet you now
I tell them hell no, i say
We're tryin' to lay low --dont want to jinx what we have. but
Don't wanna lose what i've found I'll give them enough info to keep them
on their toes.
Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh my feet are on the ground
Even though im stuck
But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
With you I'd say, i'm better off in every way
Things are finally, finally lookin' up
Oh my feet are on the ground
Even though im stuck
Even though im stuck
But so what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
With you I'd say, i'm better off in every way
Yeah, yeah
Better off in every way
I'm better off in every way
I'm better off today
The sky is falling
And it's early in the morning
But it's ok
Being unattched doesnt mean to be disinterested or removed; rather, it means remainging neutral in your judgements of circumstances and in your desire for a specific outcome. I have come to the conclusion to pay attention to my motivations behind what i do. You think getting married or being rich will bring security...but a good sense of security comes from within, not from attachment to any person, thing or idea. The past few weeks I have been shown that my desire show up in a form different from that which i have expected. In Dr. Carter-Scotts book "If life is a game these are the rules" she says, "If your desire is to find a soulmate, you might be sent a wonderful friend to fill your need to connect with someone in lieu of a lover....which makes me think....about the past four years. My final thoughts for the day is to keep your eyes wide open for gifts from the universe, as they sometiems come in unexpected packages...... |
